The horrors of getting a haircut

Something that I’ve become more and more aware of in recent years is that I hate getting my hair cut. Really hate it – in much the same way as many people hate going to the dentist.

It may seem odd that I’ve only recently become aware of this – surely you know if you hate something, after all! But as I grow in self-awareness, I am realising that that the simple act of knowing how one feels about a certain activity is not so simple when you’re on the autism spectrum. Being hypersensitive to so many things, you are often simply in a state of overwhelm. You are generally feeling a whole lot of things at any one time, and can’t automatically distinguish what they all are, let alone what caused these feelings in the first place.

I began to realise that I hate getting my hair cut when I became aware that I was putting off going to the hairdresser. I would know I needed a haircut – my hair was getting more and more uncomfortable as it grew longer and the style grew out, and I really wanted it to be cut – but somehow I would find excuses not to go. I would hate thinking about it. I would finally go into town, find a hairdresser, ask if they had an appointment at that time, and if they did, I would go for it, and get it over and done with – and then go home and cry. A few years ago, I found a hairdresser I was comfortable with, and it was such a relief. I saw her each time I went, but then she moved to Australia. And I was devastated – feeling terrifed about finding another one. Clearly these were rather extreme reactions, so you’d think I’d realise from this what a big deal it was. But these things would flit from my awareness – they would bother me greatly at the time and then I would forget about them, and so I didn’t build up any awareness of a pattern for a long time. Nor did I analyse exactly what it was that I hated.

I think part of it is that logically there didn’t seem any reason to hate it. I knew a haircut was supposed to be a nice thing – a treat, a pampering. And when society tells you that something is wonderful, it can be hard to actually process the fact that you don’t share that feeling. Going to the dentist was fine – I knew that was supposed to be horrible, so I was prepared and could easily process my feelings of dislike and go ahead anyway. But the idea of having my hair cut elicited lots of conflicting and confused feelings that I’d never really thought to analyse.

Interestingly, when I first started reading about autism, many years ago, one thing I kept coming across was the idea that autistic children hate getting their hair cut because it actually hurts them. These (very old-fashioned and dated!) articles would claim that while cutting hair doesn’t hurt a ‘normal’ person, it actually hurts an autistic person – they can actually feel their hair getting cut and it hurts. So I’d read that and took a pair of scissors and cut one of my hairs, just to see if it hurt. No, my hair was normal hair, I realised – not autistic hair. It doesn’t hurt. Same as fingernails. So I’d concluded that getting my hair cut doesn’t hurt.

More recently, I’ve realised it does hurt – but not in the simplistic way that those articles seemed to be suggesting (or possibly I was misinterpreting, taking them too literally! A difficulty with being autistic is never quite knowing if a misunderstanding is due to your autism – it can be, but certainly isn’t always). It’s not that I have feeling in my hair – rather, it’s the pulling of my hair that comes with brushing and combing and tying bits up. My head hurts afterwards. And the blowdrying always causes me distress, because the hairdryers are put so very close to my head and they are too hot, and feel intrusively close. And the smells of the various stuff sprayed in the room (even when not sprayed at my head) overwhelms me. It’s just an overwhelming, painful experience in general.

And there’s the fear of the unexpected – not knowing quite how it will look at the end. Will it be okay? Will the sides be the same length? I’ve had many a hairdresser get annoyed with me in the past because I said that one side was longer than the other, and I wanted them even! A main reason I was comfortable with the hairdresser who went to Australia was that she would simply laugh in a friendly way when I explained I wanted the sides even – she was totally laid back about it and that made such a difference. It can be a frightening feeling when someone is irritated with you. Also, she didn’t chat to me, which also made a difference. It’s not that I can’t make myself do small talk when necessary, but having to make small talk to a stranger while on complete sensory overload is very exhausting. Especially when they ask: ‘What are you doing today?’ or ‘What are your plans for today?’ – and you think in a panic: ‘Gosh, what do I say? Am I supposed to have plans beyond this? I have no idea what I’m doing – I’ve mustered all my energy to get my hair cut and haven’t thought beyond that! This is what I’m doing! Getting my hair cut! Then I’ll go home and recover!’ But of course, one can’t say that, so I generally say something vague like ‘Oh, I’m going shopping’, and hope they don’t ask what I’m buying!

I’ve been wanting to write about this for a couple of years now – each time I’ve been to the hairdressers and come back home feeling quite traumatised, I’ve thought to myself: ‘I must write a blog post about this. I’m sure there must be others on the autism spectrum who are the same.’

Actually, now is probably the best time for me to be writing about it, because I have finally come up with a solution, which seems so simple I don’t know why I didn’t come up with it years ago. There are hairdressers who come to your home. And there are hairdressers who let you go to their home. And it’s so much simpler that way. You’re not in a noisy, smelly environment. You don’t have to have your hair blowdried in a certain way (in theory you don’t in a hair salon either, but no matter how many times I’ve asked the stylist to keep the hairdryer at a distance from my hair and not touch it, and they’ve agreed, they always end up doing it the way they always do it!). It’s more peaceful and more personal and easier to process. It’s cheaper too, which is always a bonus.

The difference with home hair stylists is that often it’s through word of mouth that you hear about them – and many of us on the autism spectrum don’t tend to be very chatty, and often we are not in the know about the various social things that people talk about. I realised I’d have to make the effort to ask colleagues about where they get their hair cut, and whether they knew any home stylists. But once I did that, I realised it was much easier than I thought. A lot of women love talking about such things and have all sorts of connections! One of my colleagues has a daughter who is a hair stylist and cuts hair in her own home as well as in a salon, so I went to her home. Much less stressful than going to a salon! Much quicker too. And now I’m at the stage where my hair really needs cutting again, and for the first time, I’m not the slightest scared about making an appointment.

One thing occurs to me to mention before I end. Those of us on the autism spectrum are often thought to have an irrational fear of change. And if I weren’t able to express myself in words, it would be very easy for people to see my distress at having my hairdresser move to Australia as a typical example of this. It’s not a big deal for most people to have to change hairdresser, after all. But if you see it in terms of sensory hypersensitivity, and having extreme difficulty with a certain type of experience, it starts to seem a lot less irrational – of course if something generally causes pain and discomfort, it is incredibly important to find someone who can do it in a way that minimises these feelings – and when finding such a person is difficult, you want to keep the one you’ve got! The same can be applied to all sorts of things – when you see an autistic child who wears the same clothes over and over and gets distressed at having to buy new clothes, it may well be that the clothes he’s got used to are the ones that cause least discomfort. Having to start wearing new clothes potentially causes a great deal of pain and discomfort.


  1. This is why I have cut my own hair for decades! It used to look horrible when I first started, but I’ve been cutting my own hair for so long now that people are amazed when they learn that it’s not a professional cut.

  2. I too had been cutting my own hair for a number of years, but after breaking my shoulder I could no longer reach my scissors accurately around the back.

    I found someone close by who would open her salon early, so there would be no one else there and no chemical smells. It was perfect. (The cut itself was merely adequate, but of lesser concern.)

    But now, after 3 years, she had the nerve to get married and move 200 miles away. Last August. And I haven’t gotten a cut since.

  3. I don’t have autism, but I also HATE getting my hair cut! It doesn’t hurt my scalp, but I get anxious (I don’t believe it’s full-blown anxiety) about what it will look like at the end, and also about the small talk. I will avoid it for months and months, until my hair is so bad that I can’t put it off for any longer. I trim my own bangs in the meantime.
    I think a lot of people hate change & uncertainty, both people with autism & neurotypical!

  4. This is insane! I thought I *liked* getting my hair done, and used it as a clue that I couldn’t be on the spectrum. Ha! everything that you mentioned are the fears I have! I only *like* having my hair done because when it’s finished, I have a new mask. i hate the hairdryers all going at the same time, and i hate the small talk – i only go to my hairdresser, who is chatty, because she’s probably the best in my state. I find the haircutting process itself fascinating and I like to watch her technique and learn from it, but I’m always too chicken to trim my own fringe – probably because I’ve always had my eyes closed when she trims my fringe. Thanks for the post, it was quite eye opening! Now I know why I avoid it so much even though I love the outcome so much. It explains a lot though. I’ve also taken it really personally and difficultly when previous hairdressers have left…

  5. it’s so hard to suffer with all these sort of things and anything and everything in a given moment that I too so often am very overwhelmed by things so much that I am often in a constant state of overwhelm, all the difficulties flitting in and out of awareness causes me to not be able to sufficiently pin down issues and understand them enough to communicate myself effectively to get help and identification of my ongoing lifetime difficulties which I suspect now in my thirties are down to an autism spectrum disorder. I feel trapped but the way you manage to describe things with certain words and pin down certain difficulties using language in the way I cannot spontaneously I think may help me. I’m pleased to discover your blog.

  6. I’m a “high-functioning” aspie, and I both like and don’t like going to the hairdresser. On the one hand, the shampooing is ~amazing~, but on the other, I have to, as mentioned, talk, and there’s always hair in your face and the stylist doesn’t warn me when she pulls out the clippers. It’s a total surprise.

  7. I discovered I am probably, likely a difficult clement because I want to work out the details if I am going to try to change my color or cut. I don’t like drastic changes. Sometimes I will try a bolder color change and I end up upset at my own choices. If a color change comes with a cut change I can lose it and will cry.

    I’m afraid of changing hairdressers so I’ve gone to the same one for the past 10 yrs tried different people in between with no success. I dont like my hair to look dated though, i trybto stay with the trend at least for my haur because hair trends are easier for me to figure out than clothes trends.

    My current hairdresser understands I don’t like too much change, bit now she is further away, and now that she has kids, she doesn’t seem to stay up on current products/trends. So now, typical me, I gave too much info, confusing, was upset about current t results (usually she will explain to me in more detail why she is cutting it a certain way or what she is doing as she does my hair) and now with my last OMG.. what happened to my hair I irritated her.

    I didn’t mean to, I overestimated her understanding. She doesn’t know wayhy I don’t like too much change because maybe I am a bit Asperger’s but seem neurotypical, small chat is ok, and I just come across as a dork, or really smart.

  8. It’s sensory pain! I just had a haircut a few days ago. I cringed every time the hairdresser’s hand brushed against the back of my neck. It causes something like an electric jolt going through my spine. And I hate the chattering. Very glad she kept quiet.

    But an autistic person doesn’t always know he hates something. I thought I was perfectly all right with going to the dentist until I realized my hands were shaking and my stomach was hurting.

    Hate having my blood pressure taken. I can feel the vein pulsing, ticking, magnified a thousand times more than a neurotypical would feel.

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